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Thursday, December 29, 2005

RANDOMNESS ... how bored can it get?

hadnt been updating these few days cos i've been busy with some admin stuff lah...
1) D144 particulars
2) DE Band: have to burn the songs for them cos we're (hopefully, if we can bk the place) jamming this Monday...have to find the chords for the songs as well
3) Movie Outing: arrangin to watch Narnia tmr, apparently not many are replyin...tat's the part tat i hate, pple not cooperating...O Lord, grant me Patience!
4) New Yr Bash: anyone interested to come my church for New Yr Bash? lemme noe ya...

27th Dec ---->
helped xiao-mei to punch her crown belt with holes, apparently, she's quite thin leh (gd thing) ...haha...was rather troublesome cos i had a headache on the way to her hse, told u i cant go out in the afternoons... but she had to dilly-dally and take her own sweet time to walk down and meet me...
punched 5holes for her, the person quite dumb lor...the 5holes werent of equal distances apart! plus, they werent in line... slightly crooked !! sry candice! kor tried his best, blame that lady who punched the holes...

28th Dec ---->
today was Family Day, spent the whole day shoppin ard Parkway...i like the new extended area at 1st floor, and i bought a brown jacket frm Topman... kinda stole it frm my bro, cos the jacket caught his eye first...too bad! haha... whole family bought lotsa stuff, Topshop + Topman stuff were 20% to 50% discount, Levi's jeans were 50% off (damn worth)...
think i'm really not suited for shoppin, only shopped for 2+ hrs then i lost my energy liao... pls don bring me shopping ok? i realise tat when i shop, i must have the enthusiasm to shop or else i would go home and not waste my time there...weird? get used to it lah

wanna thank God for smth:
i'm supposed to receive my Edusave Scholarship, Scholars award nxt yr...however, i havent received the letter frm MOE regardin the details on where and when to get it...made a dozen calls this morning, frm BGSS to MOE, to Siglap CC, and finally Simei CC...apparently, there was some problem with the change of address
however, it's ok! the person called and told me tat i'm gonna receive it, my name was on the list...and tat the letter would be sent over by this wk! how come so slow this yr? before by 20th Dec, oredi received liao lor...MOE standard droppin liao...tsktsk

jus dwld this song, it spoke alot to me esp the Chorus:

Jesus Take the Wheel by Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday
on her way to Cincinnati
on a snow white Christmas Eve
going home to see her Mama and her Daddy
with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go
and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It would been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind
and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it,
she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder
when she made it to the shoulder
and the car came to a stop
she cried when she saw that baby
in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know i've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can'ts do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road i'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

make this song a prayer to God, tat u want Him to take tat wheel of ur life...allowing Him to be in the driver's selt...allowing Him to be in control...allowing Him to direct you...
rmb wat is faith?

Forsaking
All
I
Trust
Him

really hope this song speaks to u, go dwnld or ask me to send to u lor

anyway, i'm out...
PS: JC life startin in afew days, need time to adjust to my old slpin time, hmmm

{ 3:38 PM }

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

COLOUR TEST...guess my color?

here i am, nothin to post...
except my test results:

Blue
You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

majority quite true...i think, except the overreacting part, i guess i over-react quite easily... something i needa change asap
Help me O Lord !!!!

anyway, i'm out...
PS: i realised that many of my frens are so sad & lonely even during this Christmas period, time for them to know GOD man! haha, OPERATION: KNOW GOD, haha

{ 2:40 AM }

Monday, December 26, 2005

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!! ... feliz navidad

hey pple, look at the time! it's Christmas!!!! woohoo!!!
whoa, very long nvr so high liao, heehee

slpt at 430 last night, spent 5hrs wrappin presents (with shiny green wrappin ppr lor) and writing cards ... for over 31 pple! totally tiring man, but these pple have made my life so wonderful, it's my BELOVED FAMILY (spiritual) !!!!! i really really love them lots man, haha! so if u tell me to spent 10hrs to wrap their gifts, i oso don mind !!!

woke up at 830 today, feelin totally blurred out ... took me such a long time to prepare and wake up lor, it was the 1st time during the hols tat i onli slpt for 4hrs...ugh, totally not used to it! better get used to it liao, i heard JC life aint tat easy man... sweats*
woke up to a wonderful pancake breakfast by my mom! yay! fallin in love with the maple syrup, drools*

left for Daven's condo, onli 5mins walk man...haha, take tat! (oops, kinda evil ya?)
we were having cell grp at his place mah, quite big space and rather echo-y! worship time was cool , cos it's the 1st cell grp whereby we had to sing a chinese song, praise Lord tat my chinese is still okok ...

left for EXPO ard 12 plus...lemme tell u, City Harvest shud really managed their pple well, i'm serious...the way they block the entire walkway is jus irritating man, imagine... 1min to take 10++ steps, i'm serious ... it's gonna be a wk in, wk out matter lor...sickening but i'll have to adapt man...maybe we shud go to EXPO ard 11 plus...heehee
finally reached the DE corner at 1245, haha...great to finally sit down and chat with pple...

blah blah blah...

svc starts! the atmosphere was set, in a praising manner...kinda cool to run and chiong for seats once again, plus the air-con is damn shiok! we sang so many new songs today, if anyone knows the titles for the songs we sang today for svc...can lemme noe? or even better, send me if u have them!
today's the 1st time i saw Ps Nina preachin for YouthNet svc! although her voice didnt have the power like Ps Khong, i feel tat it's the Word tat she brings which is more impt rather than her voice...but hor, i wont lie lah...it was quite boring, was on the verge of slpin...haha, paiseh man!
but the msg today was so powerful, talking the Obedience towards GOD !!!
caused me to go for Altar Call, though i didnt cry at the altar...it's ok, cos i wanted GOD to see the tears of my heart, not the tears frm my eyes (wahhh, darren so chim leh)
indeed Father, grant me tat Child-like FAITH (Forsaking All I Trust Him) !!!

after svc, it was back to the DE corner and the usual stuff, prayers and admin stuff
oh ya, nxt wk got New Yr Bash liao!!! woohoo !!! praise the Lord man, i really hope tat i can at least get 5frens lor...haha, Lord, may ur work be done!

then it was presents time! started to give out the presents to the 31 pple, heehee...apparently, some left quite early and some didnt come, sianz*
u noe wat's the most amazing part abt giving presents? it's the person's reaction! i love it! and everyone's reaction was so so diff...

eg:
1) joce: "how come u get benita a drum shirt? i oso play drums mah, how come nvr give me? ok lah ok lah, i onli joking lah..." (she said smth else lah, but let's not even go there or think abt it)

2) candice xiao-mei: once she found out tat i got her a Crown Belt, she went "thank you thank you thank you thank you kor!!!!! " ... super funny lah, u cant imagine how big was her smile lor

3) suzanne: she didnt say much...onli a super super blur face, cos she didnt expect me to get her anythin, heehee.."orhhh...thanks"

4) lionel: "it's not chocolate right? it looks like a chocolate bar lor!" (FYI: it's not a choco bar)

5) benita: she initially gave me onli 1packet of chocos, but when i gave her the present..."u give me shirt? huh? so expensive leh...i feel so bad...naa, i give u another 2more packets of chocos, take lah"

haha! each and every emotion/reaction frm their faces, have really made me so glad...plus, everyone loved their gifts...the shirts were all in perfect sizes! earrings were all to their likings!
indeed, GIVING IS WAY BETTER THAN RECEIVING !!!

i oso received gifts frm my 'family' as well...encouragin cards! cool shirts ! (btw, they're perfect size) tonnes of sweet stuff! plus a life-changin bk! of course, there's more!!!... let's see who's the nicest one, who spent the most on me ah?
haha, jus kidding... of course i'm not so evil to name out who gave and who didnt...haha

jus got home and i'm really really beat....time to replenish the long lost slp!

but before tat...
A Song to Anyone who's readin this:

Feliz Navidad

Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Prospero ano y Felicidad

I wanna wish u a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish u a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish u a Merry Christmas
from the bottom of my heart

"Christmas wont be Christmas, if it hadnt been for God's Love for us!"
Let's rmb the real meaning of CHRISTMAS !!!
jingle jingle*

anyway, i'm out...
PS: to my 'family', don say thx ya? it was nothin compared to the bonds we have created among each other throughout this yr...i'm sure Laupa will cont'd to bless the entire DE tribe!!!

{ 12:09 PM }

Sunday, December 25, 2005

MAGIC OF LOVE ... can u feel it?

jus got back frm family D-upper (dinner + supper), weird way to celebrate the countdown to Christmas, but it'll have to do man! at least it's with my family...

woke up at 10 plus today, and rushed down to Mount Zion to get the remaining presents for the leaders of DE24, apparently, it turned out quite fast, finished getting their gifts by 4plus...so much time to slack at home...but crapp man, had a huge headache... i really hate goin out in the afternoons, always got headache lor

then it was MOL !!! went with my entire family, though i couldnt bring any frens...i wanna thank God tat this time, my brother came! he missed SpookShow mah, he's a christian lah, jus not attendin church (he's exactly like the old me, christian but don go church)...really hope tat in time to come, he'll return to FCBC...afterall, our family started frm FCBC since i was 4-5yrs old (so long oredi lor, cant rmb)...might as well, continue this journey in FCBC as well !!

gotta say, the show was awesome...magic tricks were mind-puzzling, fascinating and mouth-droolin...haha, abit of exaggeration but it's true! behind the magic and illusions, i still find the true meaning of MOL, like wat pastor Khong said
"it's not onli a Magic of Love, but a Magic of God's Love"...
words of such power!
but it's so so true, it's not a magic show for u to come and see how gd this magician is...it's abt coming to know the love tat God has for us, the love that died for us...for our sins...

my bro even told me he cried at the end as the final msg was preached, amazing! God has touched his heart man, but he's quite drama & emotional lah...even he told me this, "nxt time got this kind of church stuff, pls lemme noe whether it's super drama hor? " ... btw, he meant it in a funny way, not insulting way...haha, but the story and relationship b/w the father & child is so real, it jus impacted me as well, causing me to rmb this song
"When God Ran"... a touching song tat tells the story abt the Prodigal Son returnin to the Father, Luke 15: 11 - 32 ...read it once more!

it has always disappointed me tat pple start walking off as Pastor makes the final prayer...why wont they listen to the great news of God? is stayin put so difficult?... hmmm, i guess it's not their time yet, may God help these pple and bring them to u

i gonna pack the Christmas presents liao, needa give all 31 presents tmr...whoa! needa start wrappin and writing the cards liao, stressed...

anyway, i'm out...
PS: wat day is tmr man? haha...this is a clue: jingle jingle* (crapp man)

{ 3:36 PM }

Saturday, December 24, 2005

OH NO ... lost the only one

as the title suggests, i'm so disappointed right now...my fren jus told me tat she cant go for MOL tmr, there goes all my prayers...oh wells
tat means, i'm onli goin with my family... really wanted to get a non-believer, oh wells, guess it isnt their time yet... kinda disappointed cos i felt tat i didnt put in tat much effort to get pple, ugh... pissed with myself

first show of MOL is currently showing at Expo Hall 10, Max Pavilion... the entire (majority) girls' of DE tribe must be there, in the cold hall, laughin and enjoyin the cool magic tricks performed by Ps Khong and Priscilla...really lookin forward to tmr, tmr show is gonna be jus as gd! though i'm not bringin any non-believers, i trust God will definitely use this show to speak a word to me... and to my family

went out shoppin today, now i'm left with 4gifts (excluding my family's presents and others'...ugh, feelin so guilty right now) ... gonna shop tmr morning and aft, before chiong-ing down to Expo to catch MOL with my family in the evening...
wore this yellow shirt, with SUCKER at the front...was totally the laughin stock of the day, took me great courage to put it on...oh wells, at least it made pple laugh alittle ya? haha... tat's the last time i'm gonna wear tat shirt

nothin much to post, really not in the mood...guess disappointment affects me alot ya? hmmm

anyway, i'm out...
PS: juli, u better take care of ur health lah, oredi vomitted so many times today liao... take care sis!

{ 12:09 PM }

Thursday, December 22, 2005

DECISIONS...frustrating

havent been updating these few days cos it's basically ... boring! it's either at home or at home (tat didnt make much sense)...anyway, finally went out today ... Wednesdays are officially Family Day, til sch starts lah...

spent the entire day with my family
started the whole day by viewing houses, FYI: i'm moving again nxt yr, ard May or June...we've seen a couple of condos lah... guess wat? the one tat i like the most is Simei Green, which is like a few streets away? and it's where Daven stays...and it's so close to EXPO (evil grins*)
but the environment is so pleasant and the price (to me) is ok ok, after all ... wat does a 16 yr old know abt the prices of condos? i'm rather blur at these kinda stuff anyway...
i wouldnt say that it's enormous lah...it's somehow (i think) smaller than my current one, maybe bcos this current one i'm stayin in is double-storey...
on a whole, Simei Green is definitely smth i would choose...way better than the previous ones tat we saw, oh wells...jus gotta wait for God to answer my prayers, hopefully asap! cos there aint much time, although it's 6mths away...but there's alot of paperwork and stuff lah (or tat's wat mom says)

went to VJ's website jus now, i jus realised tat i gotta register my subj combi online , startin frm 23rd dec (fri) ... lookin at wat they offered, i think this is my choice:
1) GP ... duh
2) Chinese... duh, sickening subject!!!
3) PW... duh, this is gonna be tough
4) Phy
5) Chem
6) Maths...yay! i'm gonna love this!
7) Econs
pls pray tat i get in! ... getting into VJ isnt enuf, u must get into the class u want lah...

was contemplatin b/w bio or phy...but i've been hearing tat bio is a killer, so much trash to memorise...think it's time to say gdbye to my dream of being Dr. Keng, haiz...God, u lead the way and i shall follow!

bad news (dated few days back): mom jus confirmed tat i would onli be receivin $100 as Xmas allowance...kinda late notice, cos i oredi spent it all...thinkin tat it would be $300...so i'm broke

gd news (just got in, this morning): after i was prayin for Provision during Breakfast's Grace, mom said, "mummy throw in $150, daddy throw in $150 ok? then u can buy ur guitar liao, if u spend more, then u ownself come out money"...amazing how prayers can work, although my provision was targetted on the $$ to buy Xmas gifts, God showered me a guitar! haha, but i'm gonna use the $$ to buy the remaining presents (hopefully enough time man) .. then i'll throw in my own money to buy the guit, whoa!
lesson here: Prayers do work!

a note to all: when nothing is happening, something is actually happening...jus tat it's unseen

hopefully i would receive the $$ asap...or else, i wont be able to give everyone their gifts on Sun...lookin forward to Sun, doubt i'll receive much gifts...but Xmas is abt GIVING and i'm so pleased with myself tat i spend so much time/effort to scout for gifts for my beloved 'family' ! indeed, giving is way better than receiving!
imagine their facial expressions! hoping i get the right ones!

anyway i'm out...
PS: jus a thought, Juli and i heard this frm Clar...Santa is actually Satan or created by Satan (jus shift the 'n' to the end), Satan created Santa so tat we would be drawn to the presents & gifts and wish tat Santa would fall frm our chimney...Satan is hoping to make us lose focus on God, and eventually forget abt Him ...hoping tat we would have faith on Santa, faith tat he would give us a present...and eventually losing tat faith with God

jus a thought, but if u think abt it, it sounds like logical...maybe i jus think too much

{ 2:23 PM }

Monday, December 19, 2005

2nd SVC AT EXPO ... more to come

got up super early when my mom came into the room to place $150 on my table, i asked her "i thud it's supposed to be $300?" ... she didnt answer and left, oh man, pls say she'll give the remaining $150, i need the $$ for the guit and the remaining to get presents for the other 28 pple lor...ugh

had piano lessons early in the morning at 1115, odd timing right? super tired lah, yawned 3times in a minute...feelin so pig nowadays, i'm not btw...haha
my teacher is so funny lah, she said i'm gettin stupid-er bcos i'm not studyin...i seriously think she's right, she told me the new schedule for my lessons nxt yr and i immediately went blur...she even had to write down the details in big big letterings lor...darren's becoming dumb, diao... btw, my piano teacher looks like Rui En, yes the actress...roughly lah

finished at 1215 and rushed to EXPO immediately, with no breakfast and no lunch in the stomach...ugh, felt so hungry lah

blah blah...
started svc at 1330, worship session was so nice...so great to stand infront the stage and worship God, the atmosphere was in total celebration lor...surely diff frm standing at my seat, had so much energy as well...couldnt stop jumping, even for "History Maker" lor, which had a slower and weird-er beat...oh wells

sermon was powerful, straightaway dragged me for Altar Call lor...
blah blah...
jus wanna welcome the new pple into our tribe...only rmbed Alex, haha

Draw Me Close by SonicFlood:
Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend

You are my desire
No one else will do
Cos no one else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace

Help me find a way
Bring me back to You

You're all i want
You're all i ever needed
You're all i want
Help me know You are near

this song really spoke to my heart, and i jus wanna sing this song to God with all my heart! probs are non-stop...and the devil will never stop throwing matters/obstacles into our lives, most imptly it's where we're gonna stand...with God or without Him ?
i rmbed this phrase, "When God is all you have, He's all that you ever needed" i finally understood the meaning
to those who consoled/ asked/ knew abt wat happened to me today, jus wanna say a big THX ! i love you the DE family, each and everyone...

anyway i'm out...

PS: abit short cos no other significant events mah

PS (ii): MOL ! MOL ! in need of pple man, crapp...

{ 4:02 AM }

Sunday, December 18, 2005

X'MAS BASH... one wk before the actual one

i jus got back frm TC, X'mas bash was awesome and the atmosphere was so so lively lah...though it's 1wk before it's officially X'mas but can really see tat the spirit of X'mas has oredi been inside everybody liao...

woke up super early at 830, felt like a pig cos Juli was giving me wake-up call...she called me roughly 6times lor, i didnt hear them at all...ugh, until my mom came into my room and screamed, "your phone ringing lah"...haha, sry juli ! and her immediate reply to me when i called her back, was "you pig ah"...haha, i'm not btw

went to TC super early, supposed to meet cell-mates for Breakfast, but somehow Breakfast automatically cancelled, haha...helped out in Decorations, together with Butt/Nigel...and some of the other guys frm my cell...busy with the words, "BLESSED CHRISTMAS"...worse part was tat when we ran out of Gold/Silver glitter, and POPULAR didnt sell lor, had to chiong to Evergreen Stationery shop at Parkway...
nigel, thx lah...said it was basement...checked it like 3times lor..in the end, it's 4th floor lor...ugh! but thx anyway
u noe wat? there was actually extra gold/silver glitter in the large container, tat stored all the other deco... ugh, felt so dumb when i found them...joce ah, nxt time check again leh...haha, jus kiddin...

spend most of the afternoon at Haven, cutting/drawing/outlining/touching up the X'mas trees (i drew them btw) ... everybody felt like dying, butt couldnt stand cutting and candice mei mei felt so lazy (i think)...but overally hor, it was so so fun!
then it was lunch-time, ate at Macs...had lots of crappy moments, like Kevin's "cubicle" joke...haha, rmb?
then we headed to Watsons cos Sarah needed to get plasters...we shud have bought the Santa caps, kinda cool if the entire tribe wore them lor...oh wells

went back to Haven and cont'd with the Xmas trees...haiz

stopped ard 5plus cos we had worship session with the entire tribe...first time whereby the tribe had a worship session (last one was during Tribe Retreat?) btw, i love the songs tat Dan chose...fun and serious at the same time...totally lighten the moment lor, we did Therefore being justified by faith, i always loved tat song cos of the 'chewy chewy' (correct spelling?) part
we oso sang this song tat impacted me alot, donno the title but the lyrics have smth abt following Jesus...timing was so appropiate, felt as though God wants to remind us tat all the deco is not impt, most imptly we must still follow Him and worship Him...thx laupa!

6pm!
we all went up to Chapel, i was sort of involved in the deco lor (duh)...and started putting up the lights, think i'll wear a longer T-shirt and a higher jeans nxt time cos i sort of 'flashed' abit too much, heehee...anyway, when all the deco and lights were up, the place look so so chio lah...got the X'mas feelin...

7plus pm!
RLL X'mas Bash officially starts! Terry and Clar were Games IC ! think they did a great job, rmbed Clar was super nervous before tat...anyway girl, u did gd !
we played the Snowman Idol (izit?) and it was super funny cos the way they dress up the snowman/humans... laughed throughout the entire cat-walk process, haha!
i loved the small girl who was the snowman lah, i really thud tat she would win lor...so so cute!! =)

gift exchange was kinda cool, i was holdin my present (as in, the one i brought) and passed to the back ... tat means, someone at the back of my row has gotten it...hope it means more than a present...
btw, it's a rock and says "When God Closes A Door, He will Open Another Door"...the sayin was the one thing tat caught my attention and initiated me to buy, heehee! now i pass God's word to u, whoever u are...

ended ard 10plus...shall not blog abt the rest, cos it's onli takin down the deco lor...

anyway, i'm out...
PS: my present is so weird, definitely frm a girl... it's a mirror (photoframe size) and has the sayings, "Love Angel, Hell Boy...Can't stop thinking about you!"...i cant stand it, i'm gonna give it to Salvation Army or smth...i cant stand the word, 'hell' ... better not lemme catch the someone who gave it...
PS (ii): passed Lionel's guit to Sarah liao, which means i'm guitar-less for the nxt few days...until my mom gives me the $300 and then i'm on my way to get my guit, heeehaaa!

{ 4:32 AM }

Saturday, December 17, 2005

KANA TAGGED...by Candice Chua

i got tagged by Candice mei mei...so i've gotta continue this...ugh

Rule1:
Post 5 weird or random stuff abt urself

Rule2:
At the end of the post, list 5pple whom u want to do to the quiz

Rule3:
Leave a comment "You are tagged" on their blog and ask them to read ur blog for rules.

Okay here we go...

1) i dyed my hair 4 times in 3wks ... 1st: blue, 2nd: dark blue, 3rd: blonde and brown, 4th: blonde & brown with metallic green highlights...cant help it, i'm a hairdresser's son...heehee

2) on a mission to get 28 more X'mas presents for my frenz in 9 days (or less)...diff cos i'm lacking cash and i need to drag pple along to shop with, i'm a very indecisive person when it comes to gifts...pls pple, tell me wat u all want ! wat u REALLY REALLY want!

3) lives super near to EXPO and loves suan-ning pple bcos i take onli 10+ min to reach EXPO, whereas others take more than an hr or more to reach (eg: Dylan / Tor) ...evil grins*

4) huge obsession with music...even the keyboardist of the DE band, smth i feel so privileged cos i'm still so so young (spiritual and physically) , somemore alittle inexperienced, haha...but they still chose me! yay!

5) loves to make frens, but always lacked the courage to even say "hi"...took me 11mths to talk to Candice/ Sarah/ Gen ... ugh, i feel like bangin my head...i disappoint myself man...

5pple i wanna pick:
1) Jyss
2) HongSheng
3) Joce
4) Candy-jie
5) Wen Jun

{ 3:59 PM }

HOME SICK ... i mean it!

stucked at home once again, haiz...no chance cos i've been goin out so so often...today was so so sian
got a wake-up call by Sarah Chua, cos she was practically informin everybody tat JC Postin (PAE) results for the first 3mths are out, was abit blur blur so i told her to help me check...

guess wat !!!
i got into my 1st choice!!! VJC, here i come!!! woohoo!!! lookin forward to seeing Suang & Sheryl there, heehee...i'm really glad tat the Lord has blessed me with this path, since He has brought me to it, He will surely bring me thrh it...hee haaa!!! so so happy but i more worried for O's results... stressed liao

i finished writing my song liao, i decided to name it "Jesus is Who I Love"...but hor, it sounds really weird, even if i intro it to DE band...it'll be so diff to add the drums inside...ugh, plus...it's kinda short... oh wells, it's still a song of praise to God...i bet He's proud and satisfied with it, cos He was the one who gave me the inspiration...
worked on it for quite some time liao, got the tune during O's period which is super super odd... cos i was partially studyin, partially thinkin of the lyrics and chords...but finally, it's done...

mom jus shocked me last night when i got home...
Mom: this is ur guitar izit?
Me: i think so lah, donno whether my leader gave to me or onli lend me... i feel like buyin a guitar for myself lor
Mom: go buy lah... i gonna give $300 to u and kor kor as X'mas gift, u two can buy anythin u all want...

at tat moment, i was so so shocked...my mom had always disapproved of me learnin guitar and always complained tat i spent more time on it, and neglectin my piano (quite true) ... but i always refuse to listen to her...haha
but when she said "go buy lah...i give u $300"...i was totally amazed how her thinkin could change so fast, yay! Lionel, guitar can return u liao...help me go shop for guitar on another day ya? thx!
Sarah & Juli, faster borrow this guitar frm Lionel...heehee, i noe u two dying to learn...

wanna thank God for this lor, i didnt even pray for a guitar or even for my mom to understd my desire to learn guitar... the reason why i wanted to learn was to use it as a worship to God, lead my own cell-grp (in future lah) and write my own songs (piano oso can but it'll sound weird...trust me) ... but God recognised this desire and has decided to bless me with it...whoa! thx Laupa!

accompanied my mom to watch this Channel 8 prog...apparently, it was talkin abt a son sueing his parents over some family matters (chinese not so gd lah)...the one thing tat struck me didnt came frm the TV set but frm my mom, this is wat she said, "all these family prob isnt caused overnight lor, it's due to the accumulation of the probs and frustrations being bottled up..." i saw this as a sign frm God, tat He was tellin me the reasons why my family quarrel so so much...accumulation of problems and frustrations being bottled up... at least my mom oso knows the reason why we quarrel so much, i think i shall target my prayers directly towards the cause! thx laupa !

gd news aside...
i've got bad news, the ONE fren tat said she would go to MOL told me tat she's workin on 23rd and 24th...ugh, i feel like boxing myself in the face lah...how come so accurate huh? but she said, she may be able to get leave on tat day...i really really needa pray for tat leave! God! get the boss to grant her the leave on both days, pls!
supposed to let Lionel know abt the no. of pple i'm bringin MOL by this wk, now tat i've got no one on the Confirm-List...i'm feelin lost, donno who to ask cos i oredi send out to a handful of pple ... plus most of my frens are Christians lah, how?

nvm, not gonna wry so much...jus gotta Trust God!!! heehee! best and onli solution!

lookin forward to tmr's X'mas Bash, it's gonna be a blast! have to be down by 10am, oh gosh...less slp as usual, haha...needa wear bright coloured clothes? huh? i think the onli bright color shirt i have is pink? white? i definitely wont wear pink...die die oso wont, to me...it's a 'gay' color, no offence pple... guess i'll resort to white/ red/ blue/ green?...hmmm, think think*

anyway, i'm out...
PS: bro say i have Harry Potter's hair again...Clar say i have Lin Jun Jie's hair (only more curly)....ugh, stop lookin/ starin ! it's jus hair!!!

{ 3:52 PM }

Friday, December 16, 2005

HELP-OUT ... abit onli lah

spent the whole day (once again) with my 'family' ... heehee, i guess my church frenz are far impt than my sch frenz liao lor, and i'm so gladd for these wonderful pple!

woke up at 6 this morning (super amazing) right? had to get to my coach's hse to get my water tumbler for LiangMing... he was coachin a training ard 7plus, tat explains why i had to get there so so early in the morning...
took bus38 after tat to Tampines MRT to meet Ervin (liang ming's fren...is this how u spell?) to pass him the tumbler, ard 730 i think...
spent the nxt hr waiting for Sarah/ Juli...they were coming down frm Aloha Changi to meet me, wanted to slp initially but i decided to slack abit and sit ard to stare into space...apparently, i wasnt slpy at all even though i onli slpt 5+ hrs?
we then took bus8 down to Toa Payoh and finally, i gave in to my tiredness and slpt on the bus...then we switched frm bus to MRT, and train-ed down to Bishan...

blah blah blah...lazy to elaborate abt the train ride and 'breakfast' ... not really significant

reached Clar's hse ard 10 plus (maybe 11), and Val & Sarah got to work on the drawings/paintings for X'mas Bash...know u two havent finish right? must jiayou hor! me and juli were so lost tat i decided to teach her Guitar! apparently she's a fast learner, totally amazing, heehee! plus, she was so eager to learn...kept grabbin the guitar once no one was using, think i didnt take note right? haha
i didnt go Clar's hse to be extra ok, i did help out in the drawings...gave abit of opinions and showed them certain ways to draw certain objects, i guess my role was rather insignificant but at least i tried to make myself useful !
then Eve/ Terry/ Lionel/ Kenny came over to Clar's hse as well, and joined us to plan stuff for X'mas Bash, and play guitar as well haha... we ordered KFC, long time since i ordered KFC lor...yum*

decided to go Chapel/ TC with all of them, nothin to really do if i went home lor...i was trying super desperately to get away frm home cos it's so so bored, i rather spend time to bond and help my 'family'... did alot of guitarin, and finally bought BBtea ... yay! would be long time til i have it again, haiz... coming back to TC really brings back memories, even though it's onli 2wks since we left there, haha...
helped Eve and the rest preparin/plannin the deco ... was quite fun to help them out, much laughter was involved...haha, oh ya... Joce, ur song ROX! although it really sounds like "Come Holy Spirit" but i think the lyrics really mean so much, send me the chords asap hor! i demand them...

left TC ard 6plus... headed home onli to forget tat i left Clar's CD with Sarah, and she had left earlier liao...sooo, i had to go to Sarah's hse to get it, ugh so troublesome...ended up i reach home so late

got really touched by Lionel's sharing on DE blog, even cried infront of the comp cos i realised tat wat Lionel said abt Family was really so so true...even now, i realised tat i'm still wantin for God's promise to come true...i guess i gotta be patient lor, cos Lionel onli got the answer after 7yrs...wah?so long? haiz, ok ba...i will trust Him ! He will rmb, He oredi promised me liao, haha!

anyway, i'm out...
PS: die liao, no time to buy presents...i still need 28, oh gosh... how?
PS (ii): don wry Sarah, take ur time to learn guitar, everybody starts slowly lah, relax and dont rush urself ya? believe in urself
PS (iii): i got "molested" by Joce, jus kiddin...Lionel jus exaggerated by sayin she touched my butt, while she was touchin my jeans..btw, it is Levi's lah, wat kind leh? then i donno...haha

{ 1:52 PM }

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

STAYOVER ... at Ng's House

been missing these few days bcos i was at the Ng's hse (Clar&Kevin lah, don think so hard) ... last time i stayed over at their place was during June Hols ? ya, shud be...

things we did:
1) worship worship worship (FYI: darren can officially play guitar liao... heehee)
2) shop shop shop for X'mas gifts (if u're reading, u're most likely gonna receive a present...jus kidding)

erm...tat's all, i practically spent the entire 2days (includes today as well) doin the above stuff

report on 1st day (aka Monday...aka yday):
reached there ard 1plus, and went out immediately to meet Nigel...cos Clar had this $10 Haagen Dazs voucher and decided to celebrate Nigel's bday as well, haha...Haagen Daz is really really ex, 4 scoops + 3 toppings for $14...ugh, plus the scoops are super super small...oh wells, i guess it's the quantity tat matters ya? walked ard Orchard area, scouting for ideas for X'mas gifts for my frens and for this Sat's X'mas party (cant wait) , however i didnt buy anythin
got 'home' (their hse) ard 10 plus? started to do worship liao...must say, it's the 1st time i ever play a guitar for an official worship, it felt so much like Cell Grp...haha, plus i lead worship! Clar helped out abit, cos we 2 are the better guitarists...

but the time spent was so so powerful, God's presence was so so strong... i really didnt expect it to turn out tat way, but i guess God has His timing ya? each and everyone was ministered to... Clar, Val, Clement, Gavin, Ryan, Kevin and even myself... felt like Altar Call lor, haha and Laupa definitely used me ... whoa! whoa! 1st time i lead worship and Holy Spirit upon us liao, felt so so stressed tat night... shall not elaborate cos it's all mixed feelings and my brain abit slow right now, haha

after Worship time was over, we started to play Running After You/ One Way/ Tell the World as Clar & Val started to do the dance, btw Clar, if u really wanna join Dance, then join lor...God will surely make it work out lah...jiayou sister!
thx Ryan (aka Hong Chow) for teachin me the bar chords...haha, diff but i shall practise

played guitar for so long lor...fingers oso started to ache, voice oso abit distorted, haha...we ended up slpin at 430, ugh!

woke up today at 1330, yes...believe me or not, tat's the lastest time i have ever woke up during the hols...then we left hse onli at 1500 to head for Taka...needed to shop for gifts again, and buy them... lots of walkin ard

guess wat i met 2 of my frens
1)Jocelyn (frm Bio class, not FCBC Joce) - the girl i used to have a crush on, oops...maybe this shud be classified
2) Cheng Yee (BGSS) - the girl who had a crush on me... who loves to act cute, but isnt cute...ugh, this shud oso be classified

cant recall the other stuff tat happened but i noe tat i got gifts for Sat, and got 2 out of the 30 gifts tat i have planned out
i noe i noe, 30 presents are crazy rite? i'm a person who puts frens at a very high high position in my life...haha, so i'll definitely spend as much time as possible to get these presents...

got scolded by my mom when i got home...she said i spent too much on the 2gifts, oh wells...she'll nvr understd tat Frens are more impt than $$ to me...haha, but i shall take her advice and prepare a budget soon... i have a feelin tat i'll spend over $150 (finally i can use my Edusave $$ to gd use)

anyway, i'm out...
PS: my hair is changin color liao, the green areas are becoming gold and the brown areas are becoming darker...ugh
PS (ii): it would help me lots if my frens (church pple, heehee) told me wat they want...at least i could save time and save my brain cells as well...seriously

{ 3:38 PM }

Monday, December 12, 2005

BIG MOVE ... of God

hey hey hey! today was the Big Move! woohoo, totally indescribable (wrong spellin again rite?) ... feelin ultra tired right now, after so much jumpin on stage man! gotta say, performing on stage today was so much better than in TC, it could be the size of the hall ba...but the congregation was really a sight lor...lookin at them, jumpin, singin and worshippin really got rid of all the tiredness and muscle aches, plus God's presence was so strong...

started the morning with an 8o'clock wake-up call frm Juli, needed to get up early to help Candy check some hair-stylin stuff frm my mom...however, Candy last min. didnt wanna style hair liao...tat means: i can go back to slp! heehee...
woke up at 9plus, felt abit late somehow...even though i live so near, i was super scared tat i would slack and day-dream til i became late lor, quickly bathed and took my own sweet time to walk to Expo (10min walk)... once again, i met Danny/Eve/LM on the way... how come so coincidence huh?? nxt time fetch me leh...

met the entire DE tribe by 1030 (ard there lah)...started having brunch, PIZZA !!! long time nvr eat liao, but it was a bad breakfast...bcos it's so oily and etc etc, surely spoilt our voices ... plus i had some sore throat, so i onli ate 1piece and said 'no' to the wings as well

started rehearsal at 1130, abit dis-orientated cos the music was so soft and everybody was 'rushing' and got the beat of the clappin all wrong...haha, kinda funny
blah blah blah...

svc started at 1330...was totally geared up for it, until the pple started coming in...it was like a swarmin grp of ants lor, kinda scary cos everybody chiong-ing frm 1 entrance onli...haha, and legs became 'jelly'
then i prayed alittle, "God, pls let everything turn out fine...give me strength to last longer...and make sure i dont jump off the ledge/stage again" and prayers came thrh again, felt totally joyful during the worship/praise time...couldnt stop jumping/bobbing, couldnt even stop smiling (except for slow songs lah, they are more serious mah), hands were gettin stronger as time passed...haha, it was really a WORSHIP man! after so much practises, it is finally over...happy yet i'm gonna miss it...Dan, if got another chance pls sign DE tribe up for it again ! come on guys, we're doing it for Laupa lor! haha

jus wanna thank God for this great opportunity to be on stage, it is a 1st for me...plus, DE tribe was the 1st choir for Expo YouthNet svc lor, i think i represent everyone when i say, and it was indeed a privilege & honour to serve u Lord ! dont u guys agree? haha...

sermon oso touched me, despite the constant shivering due to the very very cold air-con...it made me realise tat i too, as a christian, do have doubts whenever i don get a quick-answered prayer... many of u don know it, but my family had a major quarrel on Tues night, and it really affected me for Wed Rehearsals...and i've been prayin so long for my family liao, and i thud Pastor Khong's words were all bulls-eye lor...rmbed he kept saying, "those who have been prayin for ur family yet there has been no breakthrh" ... and tat point, i felt as though this sermon was really God's msg to me, that it was God's promise to me ;not to give up on God and my family...thx Laupa!

afterall, i prayed during this wk tat this wk svc would have a word tat would impact me, and every single time i prayed for this, it always came thrh... i have 6words, "God has never forgetten abt me!" really wanted to go for Altar Call, but i was in the choir...oh wells, i believe God has His timing! Laupa, i'm waiting...waiting for an answer, no matter how long it takes...

ended ard 4 plus...celebrated Nigel's & Clement's bday after tat, shall not elaborate cos i cant rmb...jus tat the choco cake was much nicer, haha, i'm jus glad tat the cakes were enough...it was meant to be shared among the entire tribe, in the end...onli guys' side, sry girls! btw...u girls spoilt the whole thing, we werent supposed to sing bday song so early lor, you all exposed us! haha, jus kiddin..

after everythin ended, i brought the Chua sisters to the bus-stop...apparently, they're quite dumb...donno how to find themselves, but bcos i'm such a nice person (haha), i helped them! in the end, i decided to take bus24 home ... onli 1 stop lor, totally wasted my $$, oh well...i was oso tired lor

anyway, i'm currently listening to Running After You, i still feel tat this song is so meaningful, not onli does it have a catchy beat but the lyrics ring in my heart everytime i sing/listen...esp the chorus

i don care what people will say
cos i'm running after you
i won't turn back and go their way
cos i'm running after you
no matter what may come my way
i'm running after you
it's you, i'm following today
i'm running after you

why care on how pple look at us christians? why matter how pple judge us? why shud we matter abt wat they say and change our attitude towards God jus bcos of their opinions to u? why do we choose to doubt God whenever things arent turning on the way we want? shudnt we trust Him at all times? no matter what happens? no matter what prob comes in our way? shudnt we jus say " i wanna follow u, no matter what happens " ?...

hope this song is more than another song tat u jump to the beat, more than lyrics of a song (hmmm, abit familiar), more than a song...but a msg u're saying to God tat u would follow Him, Run to Him, no matter what happens...guys! let's run to God at all times!

anyway i'm out...
PS: the upcoming wk is so free again, time to jio pple and go out...needa get X'mas gifts asap, ugh...i really hope $$ would drop frm the sky (not literally)

{ 1:11 PM }

Sunday, December 11, 2005

BIG RUN ... to GOD !

had to slp so early last night in order to wake up for today's Big Run... first time during the entire hols tat i woke up at 6am!!! but...u wanna noe smth? the Big Run was so gd! it was so fun to jog together as a large tribe/grp/church ! i'm so amazed tat our Church decided to run ard Spore jus for GOD, i mean...how many churches actually do tat? none...except ours right?

woke up early in the morning realising tat my hp was abit haywire...it couldnt send out smses, make calls or receive calls...totally destroyed my entire morning, was so pissed off
after the Run, i had brunch with Eve's girls plus my cell-mates...felt so tired oredi, plus the aircon at the food court created the perfect slping feeling...
intention after Brunch was to go to TM's Nokia Shop to send my N7610 phone for repair, but halfway during the bus ride, i gave my phone another try...guess wat? it can work liao! Praise the Lord...however, i was wasting tat bus trip...haiz! but it's ok...

reached home at 12plus...then fell onto the bed and slpt til 3plus, before headin down to Mom's shop to get Bday Cakes for _____ (ahem* , cant say here)

well, tat's how my day was...
i need to adjust soon, even creatin this post was diff cos it's a SATURDAY EVENING...and i'm usually at Parkway, attendin svc...it's weird now cos Sat was a fav day of the wk, but it's the most sian now...no cell, no svc, no bubbletea, no more cell at void deck, no more squeezy feelin during svc (haha) plus...no more Popular (i go super often lah, now how?) !!!!
guess these things are all not impt, after all it's GOD tat matters rite? heehee, i shall adapt asap!

anyway, i'm out...
PS: tml's the day! 1st svc at EXPO, all of us mustnt screw up!...
PS (ii): i needa stop suan-ning pple abt where i stay, abt how late i can wake up, abt how long it takes to reach EXPO...it's funny to see their reactions, but i shall stop!

{ 11:18 AM }

Saturday, December 10, 2005

STARTIN FRM SCRATCH...again

spent the whole day at Clar's hse together with Sarah & Val...we were like tutoring-cum-guitaring session, haha!! but it was fun!

woke up at 8 and guess wat, it started to rain ... was supposed to receive a wake-up call frm ms Sarah Chua, but i guess she's also abit pig, haha! tat was so bad...hmmm, anyway i was in the shower ard 9, and kept thinking..."how to go now?! i don wanna bring umbrella lor!!" but i needa thank God, my mom chose not to go to work til 12, and she offered to give me a ride to Tamp MRT, which is where i was meetin Sarah...GOD bless my mom man!
reached there ard 1020?...Sarah was late! again, tsktsk ...decided to be nice and walked to the interchange, hoping tat Sarah would be stoppin there and wait for...but guess wat? she didnt...wasted my time, had to walk back to the MRT station...don wry, i forgive u haha! but u are a pig, slpt longer than me yet u were still slpy...wrong wrong wrong!

reached Clar's hse ard 11 plus...i think? in case u were wonderin, Val over-over-slpt...to kill the waitin time, we started playing random worship...Sarah was so poor thing, didnt noe how to play guitar...heehee, wait patiently for tat guitar ok? haha... realised tat i'm not too bad a guitarist as i thud, i could catch up with Clar's strumming and spd (although it was abit fast at times)...haha, self praise = no praise...hmmm

after Val finally came, we ate Macs...long time nvr eat liao, ahhh...fries suck, shall not comment!!

started to tutor Clar Amaths and Phy...strange things happened, all of a sudden...smth flashed thrh the room, which totally scared everybody...it was either a camera flash/ lightning flashes/ or supernatural (?)... frankly speakin, i think it was jus our imagination but 3 (except Sarah who closed her eyes at tat moment) of us saw it lah, cant be our imagination lor....oh wells

Sarah and i left at 4...she had some 'curfew' to follow, whereas i promised my mom to be back for Family Dinner by 6...apparently, i got home jus on time! heehee!

tml's the Big Run...it's a Sat! it's sure gonna be odd stayin at home on a Saturday night!...hmph, needa slp early tonite man, ugh..

anyway, i'm out
PS: i realised tat i spent alot of time with my Church Frens ,eg: by this Sun's svc, i would be seeing Sarah 5days in a row, last wk i saw Joce for 3/4 days in a row...not tat i dislike u pple, but i needa get used to it...cos i usually see them once a wk mah (which is during Sat's svc) ohwells, Darren thinks way too much...haha

{ 3:23 PM }

Thursday, December 08, 2005

NEW POOL CLIQUE...erm, not really

woke up at 10 today, and chiong down to Mom's shop to dye my hair...it was her idea, not mine, she dyed a brighter color for me with more metallic green highlights...ugh, it's the 4th time i dyed my hair in 3wks and i'm beginnin to think tat my hair is in super bad condition, btw, does it look nice?

went out today with Sarah, Juli and Nigel (new pool clique once Nigel is 16, haha)
finished at 1235...supposed to meet Sarah and go together to Parkway, but our arrangement was ard 1210, so we went separate ways in the end...i thud i would be the last one and chiong down with a cab, cost me 5 bucks...guess wat, i was the 1st and Sarah smsed me saying "you better not be late"...who was late in the end? nigel? juli? nothin to say oredi rite?...haha, relax

ate at Mos...spent $7 on my meal. Teriyaki Chicken Burger and milk tea are complusory, and thx Sarah for playin tat trick on me, poured tat milk w/o me noticing...maybe i was jus blind or "eye got stamp" (hokkien)...i still think tat Mos is super ex, no doubt the food is nice but the price can be shockin at times, 7bucks for a small burger? hmmm...

went to 'Megapool' at Builders but apparently, we couldnt sneak Nigel in...tried to lie his way in, but it didnt work, guess God didnt want us to break the law and lie...let's give thx to tat ya? although i was alittle unhappy and started suan-ning Nigel, it's ok cos it's the Law and i cant do anythin rite?..
we decided to go Marina to catch a movie, watched Chicken Little after much persuasion...gotta say, it's really funny and i did enjoy myself with the laughter and etc etc but i usually go for movies with a solid or can-make-it plot/storyline...Chicken Little jus doesnt fit into my choice but i guess it's a movie to bring laughter (i guess)...either way, still watched it with joy/laughter rather than in sulkiness(spellin definitely wrong)

finished ard 420...then went to arcade and all 4 (yes, includin Juli and Sarah) played Daytona...haha, i won Nigel ... literally last-minute win!
Starbucks was having a "Christmas Open House 2005" to support the Salvation Army...they were giving out free-coffee, i had my usual Caramel Frap...simply sweet and delicious, donno how come Sarah can say it was bland...think u have a sweet tooth...

after tat, we left...split up at City Hall Mrt...Juli and Nigel headed towards Douby Ghaut (wrong spellin again, haiz) whereas me and sarah headed towards Kembangan, sry tat i chose to take train when we could have taken bus, paiseh haha...everythin ended ard 6
btw juli, u don have to apologise..it's super common, don wry...give all of us time to get to know each other more, be less quiet ya?...haha

been in pain the whole day, throat is still hurtin and gettin on my nerves...plus, my stomach muscles are aching like siao...did so many sit-ups yday morning, now i'm having trouble laughin, sitting up straight, bringin myself up after lying down on the bed...ugh, totally ouch ouch ouch...

anyway, i'm out...
PS: figurin wat's the shortest route to Pasir Ris Park...hmmm

{ 9:11 PM }

EXPO REHEARSAL !

today has been a tiring day, i mean it...

woke up at 6am, cos i had to accompany parents to exercise...but couldnt, cont. to lie on the bed, and slept til 8...then finally woke up, all thx to my mom! the 1st thing i realised when i woke up, was my throat...it was super painful, i have gotten a Sore Throat liao, which means i wont be able to sing the best for EXPO svc later in the evening, plus ... it might affect my singing on the actual day of the Big Move! immediately went to take Health supplements, ate 3 pills...ugh! then went to the gym at my house to train my stamina...

spent 30+ mins on running on the treadmill and doin the bike...legs became jelly after tat, haha! but it's for my own gd! did sit-ups as well, stomach muscles are painful liao...and it's gonna affect me tml...ugh!

went out with parents after tat...went TM (tampines mall) to shop abit and of course Lunch...ate at "Bali Thai" which was the most horrible time for the entire day, i was having sore-throat yet i made wrong choices... we ended up eating Green Curry & Tom Yam, which totally killed my throat...plus, i can take chilli but to a certain extent...and gotta say, the curry was super spicy...didnt had the mood to cont. after tat, guess i had very very little for lunch...oh wells

went for piano lessons later on...ard 415pm, i always enjoyed Piano lessons cos my teacher abit heck care and she's fun to talk with...can always joke with her! heehee

ended at 515pm and headed for EXPO...wasnt feelin too gd oredi, could feel the fever plus the throat wasnt any better...reached there with a disgusted feelin, body was feeling the muscle pains, felt like crapp...
had massive headache and it affected me so much, so frustratin...i hate it when i go out in the afternoon, headaches surely happen... worst of all was helpin Clar to buy the burgers for Pastor, i know i know...for Pastor, i will be so so willing to do it but the condition i was in, was totally ... no comments!

jus wanna thank ShiXiong for bringin tat Panadol for me, i was contemplatin who to call...haha, it really 'revived' my senses, headache went away immediately...body temp. had gone down as well
best of all, i could worship God during the rehearsal...felt His presence so strongly, didnt even bother abt the aching muscles or the super 'suan' arms...He answered my prayers once again, praise the Lord! voice oso came back, could sing harmony for "How Great is Our God" as well...totally amazing! God is so so gd !

but...ended up so sweaty and tired, legs were literally rooted to the platform...when i tried to lift my left leg up, it hurted like siao...
oh ya, we were jumpin so much tat the stage was literally vibrating...so scary sia, for a moment i thud the platform would break...i saw the reaction on Charlotte's face, so shocked...haha
oh ya, there was this sound ... smth like "zzzzztt" tat will sound occasionally, paul and i were guessing wat sound it was, he said, "Waterfall"...i said, "Television Programme, those with wrong freq." haha...

felt so tired after the rehearsal ended...but abit high as well
thud Eve was being abit strict when she started pin-pointing Candice and others (cant rmb, if i'm wrong don blame me) to improve their moves and attire..i finally noe tat Eve wants to do things 100%, no space for error...whoa! Spiritual mom jiu shi Spiritual mom...haha
'suan' Nick, Paul and Dylan on the way home, cos they needed to spend over an hr to reach home...whereas i can jus walk home and reach in 15 mins? haha, sry pple!

reached home in total sweat! ugh, so near yet so tiring...Sarah! how come nvr give me a ride home? u still owe me!
guess wat? i saw Danny as i was preparin for supper...saw him frm my house, he was at Shell...saw Joce and Candy as well (i think so lah, Joce looks weird with tied hair, opps)...think Eve was oso there, duh...

anyway, am killin my throat even more by eating Curry Puff right now, ugh...
pls pray tat i don fall ill, and my health improves by Sun! i really want to be on stage, i want to worship GOD !!!!!

gonna play pool with Sarah, Juli and Nigel...yay! long time nvr play, surely surely suck alot, i mean it!
anyway, i'm out...tired zzzz
PS: i realised tat i always fall ill or etc etc when we move to another new place for Church, eg: previous svc at Suntec...i lost my voice. current svc at EXPO...high % of falling ill plus, i'm losing my voice again...typical, oh so typical

PS part ii : during Running after you, i jumped until i fell...diao...relax, onli fell frm the ledge...didnt literally fall DOWN and drop onto the floor...super paiseh, XD

{ 3:57 PM }

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

oh ya...
i was watchin TV in the evening, and did channel-surfing...came across HBO and it was showing "Judas", a movie regardin Jesus and the betrayal ...
i think, to create such a movie would be so so stressed...cos u have to follow the bible, and true enuf...the movie is exactly like the bible, of course some parts sure left out lah...
it basically focused on the Books of Matt, Mark, Luke and John... even the verses are the same, eg: "if you have faith of a mustard seed, you could tell the mountain to move... ...etc etc " ... feel like watchin "Passion of Christ" liao, but am i still underage for it?...it's M18 izit?...oh wells, not too sure

this was one of the many movies whereby i cried...esp when Jesus was crucified, the scene was very painful to watch, it wasnt gruesome or bloody, but the sacrifice of Jesus was painful to my eyes and my heart...heart kept beating so so fast, think it's GOD arrangement for me to watch this movie, think Laupa wants me to return to the right purpose...

one phrase in the movie hit me the most: (think it's in the bible, didnt check...haha)
Judas said, "why did u leave me?"
Jesus said, "i didnt... u left me"

i begin to question whether i'm doin things for my own gd or for His...eg: the recent Chorale thing, stage performances for last Sat and this coming Sun svc the movie definitely spoke to me

i wanna set things straight with God, i wanna use my mouth to worship Him forever, i wanna sing praises to Him, i wanna RUN AFTER HIM...i wanna set my heart/focus on the Cross and Him...

another recent event tat really spoke to me was Candy's devotion... go to Links, and find DE7000, click and read Devotion #25 (i think)...and read, it's quite long so i shall not write it here, but the thing tat spoke to me was tat, God nvr gave up on me even though we choose to gave up on the things around us...

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

this brings us back to John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that He gave his one and only Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life"

thx Pa...God is so so Gd, so so Great, so so Wonderful, so so Loving, so so Patient

PS: darren needs encouragement now!...tag tag tag!

PS no. 2: aiya...how come i choose to post it here but not as a devotion in DE blog? diao

{ 4:09 PM }

sian sian sian

i found out tat Hols are really boring man, spent the entire day trying to find smth to do...spent so many hrs on my instruments today, and i gotta tell u ... Diploma Piano is super diff, took me 30mins to practise jus 1 pg and it's not perfect yet, the spd i play at is like tortoise...ugh (FYI: i like it quick, usually score better at fast songs)
in the end, got so fed-up (wrong spellin, definitely)... then i stopped playin

officially learnt how to play "How Great is Our God" on guitar liao, yay! actually, the chords are pretty simple...onli wat? 4 to 5 chords, can be managed by an beginner... darren is being so 'action'...i need to stop it! ... but, the gd thing is tat i can practise and memorise the lyrics while playin the guitar, tat song is one of my favs liao...the lyrics mean so so much man!
bad news: mom thinks i'm focusin too much on guitar, so i gotta reduce the time spent...or i can practise in the afternoon when she's not at home, or in the middle of the night while she's aslp ... evil grins*

gonna dye hair tml, yes i noe...3rd time in 3wks, think my mom startin to feel irritated liao...but cant blame me man, the dark-blue dye is so invisible...until now, onli a handful of pple can see lor...plus it needs strong light...
so i'm gonna color it "caramel", the same color as last yr...i think it's the best, cos it's like blonde/ gold/ brown under diff light intensities...plus, it'll definitely work out fine, unlike dark-blue... my hair gonna be super spoilt, but it's the last time...i promise, pple!

Tue (tml) : dye hair ...again
Wed : Piano + EXPO rehearsal
Thur: Pool with Sarah, Juli and Nigel...
Fri: Bird Park with the Nobles? confirmed onot?...of all places, the bird park?...ugh
Sat: Big Run? need details first
Sun: BIG MOVE!!!!!!! will be infront of 8000 over pple, stressed liao...

nxt wk is still uncertain...haiz

anyway, i'm out...
PS: i hate bar-chords...ugh, sickening and diff

{ 3:55 PM }

Sunday, December 04, 2005

it has been a tiring day, non-stop worshippin man!...
arms hurtin, legs aching, throat feelin awkward...body feels lethargic!
ugh ugh ugh...
however, despite all the whinning...i feel so happy to worship God, totally whoa!
i must say, today's svc was totally fun man! it's was really really nervous esp when the pple start piling the place and it really freaks u out...i was having sweaty palms, and cold palms too...think i held Juliana n Candice's hands for prayer rite? hope my palms were dry ya?...haha

but worship was definitely gd man! and it's exactly wat Ben (is this his name?) , one of the vocalist standin infront of us... it is indeed a privilege to stand infront of the entire congregation, i felt so honoured man!
btw, to the 12 of us on stage... JOB WELL DONE !!!!! let's put even more effort for EXPO ya? more smiles :) ... more clappin...longer time spent on jumping...more time spent on lifting our hands...although it would be super super 'suan' but let's do it for God ok? He sacrificed His son lor, and u cant even lift ur hands to worship Him? are u kiddin me?...haha, relax pple, it's jus a tired person talkin here...haha, but do take it abit seriously

i think the most awkward moment was when we sat at the platform n listened to Ps Eugene's sermon, apologises to Lionel man...sry for spinnin my pen when the camera captured everythin ya...paiseh =]

the other awkward part was SMILING...it's normal to smile, but when u're jumpin and feelin ultra tired, it's really really diff to place the smile onto my mouth man...

went to TCT immediately after svc, around 7 plus...had free dinner, YAY !! was oredi tired on the bus, tried slpin..but the trip wasnt tat long...plus miss sarah chua kept disturbing me, jus jkjk
...reach TCT then continued our rehearsals again, felt really really ANTI cos my body was telling me to shut down liao...i didnt jump, didnt sing ... feelin so guilty now, haiz!

finished all rehearsals at 10++... was too tired to walk to Redhill MRT and spent the nxt 1++ hr goin home...decided to take a cab, ended up sharing cab with the Chua sisters, who were quite evil cos they didnt want to fetch me home at first, but let's be forgiving ya?
hey Sarah, sry for poking u ya? but it was fun! i always loved the reaction pple make when they kana poked...haha, u shud blame Candice for not sittin beside me...
spent $15 on taxi, think it's rather reasonable...btw, Sarah & Candice u two don needa pay me ok? it's alright...oh, don forget hor... u/candice owe me a taxi ride (not frm Expo to my house, duh) / car ride home...think it's kinda impossible to get the taxi/ car ride cos all svc are at EXPO now, which are 5mins away frm my house...heehee

anyway, i'm off to bed man...really really tired, time to relax and let the body rest too!
PS: needa learn History Maker & Tell the World That immediately, 2 very tough and weird-sounding songs...ciao!

{ 4:38 PM }

Saturday, December 03, 2005

jus got back frm TC...took a cab home since i was super tired, didnt noe tat Chorale Rehearsals are be tat demanding...
arms are aching, clapped and raised them up for at least an hr or more...jumped for a long time as well, plus... i went swimmin this morning, which really adds up more strain to the arms n legs...sickening...
voice abit strained as well, couldnt really reach the notes tat i wanted to...this morning oredi tried practising worship the Lord with the guitar, but my voice was oredi lousy and could onli reach the low ones...sickening! let's hope all turns out well tml ya? cant wait man! although i would definitely be super nervous but i still wanna worship God man, He is so so gd...

sent Lidya off this afternoon, hey lid...boo to u, didnt even treat us coffee when u had $150 dollars with u lor, opps...did i reveal ur secret wallet ? ... haha, jus kiddin... anyway u take care ya? don forget abt us and rmb to come back to Spore in March...will be missing u...

cant really think or recall much, brain is too tired liao...haha!
anyway, i'm out...ciao!
PS: did i really look 'tao/dao' on stage? i oredi smiled leh...

{ 4:13 PM }

Friday, December 02, 2005

jus came back frm Cineleisure...i've watched Harry Potter finally! had lotsa trouble even bookin tic but God has blessed us with the tics, and the seats were perfect (for me) cos i was literally in the centre, BEST!
finally got the final 6 singers for tml's rehearsal
1)Paul
2)Nigel
3)Clement
4)Gavin
5)Ryan
5)myself...

am really glad tat i am able to do this simple role for God, though there's gonna be 'butterflies in my stomach', i'm gonna do it for Laupa!

coming back to the movie...
i'll give me 8 out of 10 cos i didnt read finished the entire book, so i wont know whether there was alot of stuff tat were cut, think i've to catch up and start readin, which i dislike so so much...
btw, Emma Watson aka Hermione Granger...is super chio, oh gosh esp when she was in the pink gown...drools on the keyboard* ...i rmbed tat she looked so ordinary when the 1st movie came out, but look wat puberty and time did! oh...and Cedric is really not shuai or cute lah...but Clar n Joce (sat beside me) were constantly sayin, "CEDRIC IS SO CUTE" and kept starin at him as he enters the scene...ugh! wateva lah...either way, he DIED...haha, ok tat was abit evil of me...oh wells

tml is the rehearsal for Sat's svc...honestly, i'm gettin abit freaked out cos i haven rmbed all the songs yet, esp 'History Maker' which is super duper hard...doesnt really sound nice either, but i will memorise by (hopefully) tonite...

oh look at the time...i better ciao liao, time to repeat "History Maker" on my iTunes 100X until i rmb the lyrics, this aint gonna be easy man! .. sweat drips down forehead*

i'm out...
PS: Lid is leaving tml, sad ... =(

{ 4:36 PM }

Thursday, December 01, 2005

jus got back frm Clar's concert, it was gd and i wanna affirm Clar for all her hardwork...continue to sing for Laupa hor. super tired now, even slept on the train when i was headin toward CityHall...

met up with my clique, now known as nobles (weird name right?), in the afternoon to take some Neoprints at CenturySquare (aka Tampines) bcos Lidya is leaving Spore liao...fri to be exact, kinda sad tat she's leaving...afterall i've known her for 4yrs, even lookin at the Neoprints right now brings back the times we had together...don wry Lid, we're sendin u off on Fri ya?
will definitely send her even though it's a few hrs before my Singin Rehearsal at TC...but she's a close fren of mine, so i shall make tat sacrifice...God, bless me with a taxi...heehee
btw...they looked so chio and shuai today, u noe why?...cos today is Prom! and i missed it, actually the main reason why i backed out of Prom, was bcos i thud our church would be having Mission Trip...but they didnt, instead God dropped me an invitation to Clar's Concert...oh wells, it happens (not as if i would be Prom King, haha)

i guess the last few songs really stirred my heart...not the actions but (really) the words and lyrics... cant believe God used Clar's Concert to speak abit of sense into me, amazing...our God is simply amazing...
another amazing thing was the closing of Prayer for the entire choir...1st time i ever saw a Conductor closed the night with a prayer for over so many pple...whoa!

yay!...tml watchin Harry Potter with Joce and the rest, still kinda disappointed tat onli afew of us can watchin...was expectin more, oh wells...
btw Joce, take care of urself and learn to calm down abit...think Work has killed u ya?

entire wk is booked...
today: Clar's Concert
Thurs: Harry Potter Movie
Fri: Send Lidya off + Singin Rehearsal for Sat's svc
Sat: Svc + Singin Rehearsal for Expo

finally, i'm busy...however tat means i have lots of admin stuff to do for the singing rehearsals...Danny! faster give me the chosen singers for Fri!!!!

anyway, i'm out...
PS: butt dyed her hair brown... diao*

{ 5:54 PM }